ha. too much time on my hands...and nothing nagging at the baq of my brain. wonderful! watched Lost season 2 til 6 am last nite. exciting like hell.

and im aching all over from touch trainin yest...wth. used to be able to get thru blacks fitness w/o aching...and now? and my confidence lvl is droppin again...until negative infinity...yea tryin to get it back...tryin hard man. even my teammates and the coach are losin confidence in me. so its all down to myself rite? show confidence and others will too in u.

and im such a great procrastinator. realli shud change tt nasty lil characteristic of mine. heh. yesh. gg to move everything baq home fr hall ltr in the day. my hse is gonna be messy agn with all the junk im gonna bring baq. muaha. poor mommy's gonna get a headache!

i realli wanna go overseas and relac. altho im liberated fr exams but still feel sth is missin. i need to get out of singapore! dis small lil red dot on the world map. dis politically safe ctry (wokays...PAP jus lost their power in Spore...maybe things are starting to change). dis ctry tt does not support or is open minded enuff towards opposing views fr the young towards the govt. dis ctry tt seems to be constantly upgrading every single piece of land it has....dis dis...ok enuff. haha.

bottomline: i jus need to go overseas. even for a few days. fly away.......